Ever just feel so homesick all of a sudden??
I go to school out of state, so being away from home for so long I feel its a common feeling among many, right? Now I don’t know if it is because I’m turning 21 next weekend or if its just that time of the quarter where I want to be home and relaxing and with my family. I miss my whole family, but I’ve especially been missing my dad this past week and part of me is thinking it is due to the fact that I’m turning 21 and I’m not spending it with my family or him. (My parents aren’t divorced, just FYI)
I had it in my head that I’d be having my first official drink with my dad, like thats typically why most are excited about turning 21…
DRINKING ISN’T EVERYTHING
with that said, I’ve always been under the impression that it was going to be a very special bonding moment? My family aren’t heavy drinkers, more of social drinkers at get togethers, and usually its like a right of passage??? I’m not sure if thats the right phrase, but having that first drink with your dad has been portrayed as like a milestone in most medias such as TV and movies. I guess I was part of the population that was influenced by that thought that it kind of makes me sad that my first drink won’t be with my dad. Sure I can still have a drink with him when I get home, but not having him with me when I experience that moment is almost a little disappointing?
Yes bonding with parents doesn’t always involve drinking, but I just…I don’t know for some reason it just really makes me miss my dad. He tries to spend as much time with my brother and I and I haven’t really taken him up on those many chances to do so and I feel terrible now about it. Seeing where I am now and how much time has passed, maybe I’m just trying to make up for lost time? I don’t know, but its really bugging me.
Kind of reminds me of a song my friend shared with me
“Papaoutai” – Stromae
(Lyrics in the Comments)
Granted my situation isn’t THAT bad, but I guess it relates to the song because I miss him and I can’t share this moment with him.