As the person who runs this blog, without any intention other than to just post whatever the hell I feel like, does anyone else feel like there is no organization?
Oh there are others? Cool!
Cause thats just it; I say I want to continue to post and be productive while expanding my skills and sharing I guess my life with an unknown audience…yet I only return with the same content.
Stress is too much.
I can’t stop thinking.
Tired of being quiet.
In between the occasional somewhat interesting posts are, majority, me just whining. Is this a creative blog? Is this a safe place? Or just a place for me to scream into the void???
I generally am not trying to sound angry, but I’m so lost and confused that I get angry because I feel angry? I get sad when I’m angry. I get stressed when I’m angry. I resort back to an infant who doesn’t know any better, but god damn, does it feel good to just let out.
Is this just a place to voice what I can’t regularly?
I run this blog.. . . . I’m sorry “Blog”
which means I have power. So is it because I have power, that I feel allowed to run this as I see fit?
Because I’m literally yelling these letters, violently, against a speechless white screen who just stays there and takes my abuse. God if I feel power by screaming and beating something that can’t rebel, then I am a monster. Breaking the screen and my keyboard just because I don’t feel ok…
I am cruel.
I am so sorry.
I am so sorry to everyone who chooses to read these.
This was suppose to be a post questioning my actions, yet here I am continuing to be a whining brat.
Victim Card Time! FML
I can’t win.
I fully accept responsibility for my words.
Am I mad?
Am I too well in touch/aware of myself?
Stay tuned as I have no idea what my next post will be.